This was a very difficult decision for me – I actually sat on my chair and cried yesterday, and I’m crying now, but I just can’t keep updating weekly anymore. I don’t want to be one of those web serial autors who start missing updates and eventually stop updating at all, so I’m making the cut here, with the promise that I will definitely finish this web serial.
I spent a few days sick in bed this week, and as I thought about how in the world I was going to finish this week’s chapter, I realized one thing: I can’t. Some of you may know of the massive drop in reader numbers that started with the beginning of the Endgame arc and went on and on. Right now daily views are lower than they were near the beginning of the serial about 2 and a half years ago. I used to have a steady group of readers who came back for the latest chapter every 1-3 weeks, and their number stayed the same since arc 6, about two years ago. Now only half of them come back to read the latest chapter. Votes have dropped by half for the first time in years, as well.
I feel like every time I post an update, I’m letting everyone down, and I’m not 100% sure why – I’m burned out and have been for a while, but I always did my best to provide quality updates, though I feel the best I can manage is no longer enough. The drop in views is so depressing that it’s starting to affect my daily life.
Over the years, I’ve invested close to 2000 hours of my life in this web serial – not for money, but for the simple joy of improving my writing and having a steady group of readers who followed me on this journey. Thanks to my handful of Patreon supporters, I made an average of maybe 10 cents per hour of writing. I always hoped for more comments on updates, but I’d like to thank everyone who came back to read more, who voted and posted comments. I feel really bad for those of you who are still reading every update. I want to write the story you deserve to read, and to do this, I need to take a step back and analyze where I’ve gone wrong so I can do better.
Keep in mind that I’m writing in a foreign language. Writing in English (and trying to provide the same quality as native English speaking writers do) is an immense mental effort for me that involves lots of googling, fussing, despairing and online translating. This is probably the main reason I’ve been burned out for a while now.
Anyway, I’m going to post some kind of update a month from now, on the 12th of February 2017. If at all possible I’ll post more than one chapter on that date. I’m going to finish this story at a pace I can manage, with the quality you deserve. I hope you’ll come back to discover how the story ends!
I’d appreciate your thoughts and feedback in the comments below.